ANTM

Okay, so I called this post 'ANTM' cause I had no idea what to call it (: mannnnnn, my internet connection suckssssss!! Okay, so I'm doing my usual controlling thing and making a list. Cause, if all else fails, make a list!! I love lists, lists are my friends. Well, continuing from my last post, I went to college, for that ridiculous 'group meeting'. It was so stupid. I sat there, and they all just had a pick at me. So I did decide to leave, in the end. I sat through this ridiculous group meeting, being personally attacked, and just decided I couldn't be arsed with it. I'm also thinking now, was performing arts right for me? I mean, my Bubby calls me 'Science Genius Girl' after the Freezepop song. So, as I have the rest of the academic year, I'm going to get some maths qualifications, as I have none and could prabably do with some. Then, I'm gonna go to college and do a BTEC National in Applied Science. I mean, I love Science. I don't know why I didn't do Science in the first place. My goal is to become a Forensic Scientist. I know it's not all like you see on the television. I'm not stupid. And I know it'll be a hell of a lot of work. But I'm smart, and I work damn hard. I know I can do this if I'm determined enough. I know my limits and I know what I'm capable of. I know I'll be able to do this. I feel like Performing Arts just encouraged my mad side, and that's not what I need. Plus, I couldn't handle some of the jack asses on the course.

Achh, I should probably be packing instead of lying in bed. But I've had a mad day, I'm knackered!! That's a lie, actually. I haven't had a mad day, my emotions are just all over the place (don't ask me why, I have NO idea!!) recently, so like, one minute I'm stressing out about something really insignificant, so then I'd shout at Bubby, then I'd get guilty and upset about shouting at Bubby when it's not his fault, and end up crying. Then I'd start laughing at myself for being so pathetic. Achh, I don't even know why I'm all like this recently!! But no, I'm not pregnant, I always play safe ;) anyways, as I was saying, I should probably be packing, as I'm going to my sister's tomorrow. It was her birthday during the week, and she's had a new house mate, so it's a joint birthday-house-warming party. It should be well ace, it's an 80's cocktail theme, I've bought a My Little Pony skirt and I've got a pink leopard print vest. I need to get some tights though likeeeee D: I also, need to make her birthday card, shit the bed. I always hand make my birthday cards for family and really close friends. Because I feel like they're alot more personal, and they show that they're really loved. I'm abit of a perfectionist though, which means that sometimes it can take me hours and hours just to make one card. For the people I love, nothing is too good. I wouldn't give them a crappy card, that cost me 59p from the local shop, so why give them a hand-made card that looks shitty? I don't think so. I've made her so many though, I'm running out of ideas :o

I'm still not really sure how to use this. I'm sure there's a way you can find people and read their blogs and things. Hmm. I wouldn't mind making a few more friends, you can never have too many friends :)

J Riot, Over 'n' Out